Hello dear readers.
Firstly, I want to say *hello* to everyone that popped in and left me a comment over the last few months or whom sent me an email - even if I didn't respond to all of them - I did read them and I did appreciate them. Its a wonderful feeling to know that when you are feeling really down that somewhere, some place, someone is thinking of you.
I know that I could have came and spoken to you, told you how I was feeling but I needed to battle through my thoughts and emotions myself... and in no way, shape or form am I over how I was feeling... its time to come say *hello* and move forward.?
I am really struggling to find the words to express to you what's running through my head... This tremendous overwhelming struggle of mixed emotions...but I am going to try - even if it makes little to no sense?
If you have been my friend or been reading my blog for a long time you will already know that over the past few years we have moved several times. Sometimes across the country to follow work for my husband, or this year because the house we were living in sold and we needed to find another rental. In all of the towns that we have lived in, I have only ever felt settled in a couple of the communities.
Ironically Biloela is one of the communities that I have started to feel settled in. I am enjoying life here but we are living on borrowed time... My husband's work contract ends in May 2012 and the time for his employer to indicate if they wish to renew this contract or not is fast approaching. He has a *gut* feeling that his contract will not be renewed and they have indicated as much to him without actually saying it.
He has been applying for jobs elsewhere for the past month or 2, and in that time has had a few interviews, without any success as yet. He has backed himself into a corner career wise - having specialised in one particular area and jobs to apply for are few and far between. We are just hoping that something will come up and he will be successful - but that will also mean another relocation for us.
We know that if he can't find another job that we can't say in this town after his contract expires as I do not earn enough to support us. :(
We have been trying to save for a removal to?? Quite simply I am not sure that I could go through the emotional baggage associated with selling everything and starting over again. (if you are unsure what I am talking about read my posts from around OCT 2009 - where we made the big decision when we left Western Australia to sell all of our possessions and start over) as I feel that I am still to this day over 2 years later recovering from this trauma emotionally.
So we are both on an emotional roller coaster of sorts - Meantime life goes on at an amazingly fast rate.
I have been doing a little bit of crafting and I will try to take some photos and upload soon. I think I need to make a promise to both of us to chat to you more often. Thanks for reading / listening :)